日本を行きますよ。

My husband and I got accepted to study abroad in Japan at JCMU next semester. Now we have to scramble to get the post-acceptance paperwork done and in by Wednesday. So, no pressure there...

I hate my depression. Every time someone gets upset with me I automatically assume it's my fault and that I'm a bad person. I don't people when they get mad at me, I hate myself. I hate myself for making them angry and feel sorry that they have the misfortune to know me. My husband says that thinking that way is bull, that I'm a wonderful person. However, to me it appears that after living 24+ years, and all the times people have gotten upset at me, that I am the only common denominator. The one thing all these people have in common is knowing me, so how am I not to blame? Maybe I just attract these kinds of people towards me. But in all honesty I fear that I make them that way. I don't mean to, it's just that I'm some sort of cancer when it comes to making people miserable.

Oh well, thank God I have my husband and my Zoloft.

Fullmetal Re-Do

So apparently Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood isn't a continuation of Fullmetal Alchemist, but rather the same thing only with a subtitle (Brotherhood) added to it. Or...at least that's how it appears so far. A bit of a downer, since I've already seen all the episodes of the original. All the ones they showed on Cartoon Network's Adult Swim anyways. T_T' Maybe I'll watch the last episode or two of FA:B to see if the ending differs any. Good thing I didn't spend any money on actually buying this yet.

T_T Poop-knockers

It's sad just how few (Kuroshitsuji) Sebastian/OC fanfics their are. It's even sadder that none of them seem to be any good. Manly just blah ones.

On another note...Anybody know how to say "I have a wedgie" in another language? Random, I know. But hey, I NEVER claim to be "normal." Far from it. 私はとても変です。("Wa-ta-she wa toe-tey-mo hay-n days." It means "I am very weird." in Japanese.)

Can't think of anything else to say right now, except that Netflix doesn't seem to wanna work for me right now. How the heck am I supposed to get my anime fix with the stupid thing outta wack?!? -_-'

Well, I should probably go now. I have to get ready ready for bed if I'm going to get up in time for my 10AM Linguistics class. You'd think it'd be a hard class, but not really. My professor is really cool and makes it fun. Plus she's a huge fan of Buffy, so that helps too. ^_^

(Please note that I'm actually a fan of Twilight and don't really hate Edward Cullen, I'm neutral towards him. But the thought of Spike or the Scoobies coming across a Twilight vampire just makes me wet myself laughing. Buffy and her gang would so PAWN the heck outta the Cullens. After all, the Cullens may not disintegrate into ashes when the sunlight hits them, but nobody messes with dark Willow. "Yellow crayon Wills, yellow crayon." roflmfao.)

First Post/Blah

I'm highly doubtful that I'll ever get any followers. But in the slim chance that I ever do, I would like to thank you all ahead of time. That said, I cannot currently think of anything important to say. So I guess I'll just ramble on some...

My husband has recently started watching The Jersey Shore and Teen Mom, dragging me into watching them as well in an attempt to find more shows we can watch together. The shows are okay enough, not like I'd ever watch them on my own. However when watching these shows, as well as many other shows on TV, I cannot help but think that the cast members all need some serious form of psychiatric help. First off they're all obviously attention seekers seeing as they've opted to air their lifes on national television. Second, some of the ways they act-react and the decisions they make seem questionable to me. Then again everyone knows reality shows are almost always scripted.

We've also started watching I Use to be Fat, a show I chose. Too bad you have to be a high school senior to do this show, as both my husband and I would enjoy receiving free personal trainers. The only down side would be all those damn cameras. But then again the intrusiveness of it all might very well be worth loosing an extra 30-40 pounds or so. It's only for a few months anyways.

Other shows I've been watching as of late are Robin Hood (BBC), Black Butler, Spice & Wolf, Speed Grapher, Xenosaga, and Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood-all on Netflix. There are many more I intend to watch piled up on both my Instant Que and DVD Que. Man I love Netflix, I just wish they had more of the animes and Japanese movies/TV shows that I wanna watch. If I wish to watch any of Kenichi Matsuyama's stuff-which I DO-I'm forced to wait and take turns with my husband as to what comes in our DVD Que. To top it off most of those Matsu-Ken DVDs are on backlog! (Insert tirade of explicatives.)

Then there's my husband playing Castlevania: Lords of Shadow on the 360. He seems to enjoy the game when he's not spouting venomous curse-words and insults, banging his fist against the wall or futon in an attempt to sedate his anger towards a particularly difficult boss fight. I think I might try it one day, though I still prefer Hector over Gabriel any day.

Speaking of bishounen, I've been reading Kuroshitsuji Sebastian/OC romantic fanfiction online lately. Yet another Canon/OC pairing I have to add to my list of fanfic obsessions. The others being (in no particular order): L Lawliet, Sesshoumaru, Seto Kiba, Alistair Theirin, Grimmjow Jaggerjack, Draco Malfoy, Jacob Black, Spike/William the Bloody, Dante Sparda, Edward Elric, Kakashi Hatake, Soushi Asamoto, Sephiroth, Kuja, Kyoya Outori, Abel Nightroad, Sir Guy of Gisbourne, Kyle Trager, Lt. Comm. Data, Shinzon, Trunks Briefs, etc. Wowzers, I have a huge revers-harem on my hands! Guess I'll just have to add another expansion onto my dungeon. roflmfao.

Great googly moogly, that was a long rant! Well, I'm starting to get bored and tired. I think I'll either read more fanfics or shove my husband off the TV so I can finish up Spice & Wolf.